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Resonators
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I want to remind you of a beautiful shamanic journey I had last year to meet Gaia. This is a summary, the full transcript is available here on my 31st October 2024 blog: blog
Gaia: ‘The initial thinking behind the resonators came from fear, from the desire to avoid harm. When you pray to God, do you simply ask to be kept safe?
Me: ‘No, I pray every day for love, wisdom, guidance and support’.
Gaia: ‘So when you make your resonators and connect to me, why do you just ask for protection?
Your scientists are starting to discover that gut microbiome is key to mental health, instinct and immune function as well as basic digestion. Your gut is even talked of as being your ‘second brain’. To function well, it must have a healthy balance of viruses, bacteria, fungi and other microbes – guess who holds the blueprint for that innate sense of balance?’
Me: ‘You do!’
Gaia: ‘Absolutely. The resonators can connect to my healed resonance, so please let me support the key resource that is your gut, this will help me as well as you.
I also want to invite you to receive further connections through the resonators. The world is transitioning away from the shadow power of the patriarchy. These are painful times for humanity, and the strength, compassion and wisdom of the divine feminine is essential to help hold this space of change. When men and women connect to me through the resonators, I can hold you in my nurturing essence as well as protect you’.
A personal story – the journey to surrender
My immediate family has been going through a particularly challenging period over the last year after my wife was diagnosed with cancer. It is a right of passage, like parenting, that I didn’t fully understand until I went through it.
Once cancer has shown up, life for that person and their family is rarely the same again. It brings with it challenges and changes that are life defining and you can never return to those times of ‘not knowing’.
We made plans for all eventualities, benchmarks for when we would engage medically and when we would draw a line and follow our own path.
It worked to a point, but after many forms of inconclusive testing, we still didn’t know whether we were facing ‘symptom management’ in the words of the doctor, or protocols offering a very positive outcome.
There was a single moment for both of us during one of these medical meetings, when something snapped deep inside. All the boundaries, planning and controls we had put in place couldn’t contain the strength of feeling.
We had been rowing our metaphorical boat hard down the river, using all the healthcare experience we had accumulated over the years, but then we just let the oars drop into the river. We surrendered.
Do you know that feeling? It is not a giving up, it is not a place of victim, of allowing yourself to be ‘done to’, it is simply a place of surrender where you realise that life is bigger than you are, and if you row hard you cannot alter the direction of travel, you simply use up energy.
We still took many practical actions around good nutrition, energy practices, meditation and movement but from a new place of surrender, where we allowed the journey to be what it wanted to be.
For me, there was something overwhelmingly painful but also exquisite in that moment. It was exhausting for a day or so as I processed the shift, but ultimately I found a place of peace.
We were not victims to fate and the limitations of the medical system, but neither were we in charge of our experience. We were not creating our reality in the typical sense of the phrase, where positive thinking and clear intention create a future path of certainty. We were also not subject to the vagaries of chaos or bad luck. We were simply flowing with the river of life, unable to change direction but also not needing to.
I moved from a place of trying to steer against the pull of the river’s current to a place of realisation that I was part of the current, I was the river itself.
Can you see how empowering that can actually be? Good decisions still need to be made from that place, but with the knowledge that even those decisions come from the river underneath, that whatever we do will not necessarily alter the result, that we are in the hands of God, inside and out. There is a state of grace in this, of transcendence.
My wife is doing well and her prognosis is good; we just need to do whatever is necessary to maintain wellbeing and try to stay in that place of surrender rather than fear.
It’s not easy and we have good and bad days, but underneath it all we remain amazed at how the hardest of news has broken us open to more love. We have more appreciation of what we have and the bliss available on this incredible planet, even in the face of deep challenge.
Even in our darkest days, the light of Spirit is still shining brightly for us. If we can surrender into that love when we are most challenged by fear, then we can be transformed.
With love
Andrew